Seize the Day

Wow, mother of jesus. It's been quite a long time since I've "blogged". It doesn't really count because that was a movie review. Plus, there's really not much to say. Things are continuing as usual and I have really no need to express much. I guess I am just writing this up to recollect what I think might have happened recently. There's been some crap lately that has left me with an aching heart, but I have gotten over it and I don't feel as if it would be appropriate to type and forever embellish it into the inner systems of the vast internets.

I'll start with the light-hearted thing. At my school they put what the state of California has decided to give is for lunch. And the people who work in the cafeteria apparently cannot spell chocolate and spell it "C H O C O L A T". My Friends and I got a big laugh out of it for days. And every time we'd see it last week, we'd just laugh our asses off. It's just amazing the joy in little things that we can all take in and make wonderful. My friend, Brenda also made a filarious joke. At least it was funny to me and everyone else in our small lunch posse. We were talking about falling or something, and then she was all like "He fell in the shower." It was as awesome as anything. Then, as always, I totally connected it to hockey (sports in general).

"Imagine, if there was an athlete, let's say hockey, and you find out he is injured. Turns out- he fell in the shower. That'd be damn ironic, since it's like- their job to keep their balance on the ice with skates on. OR- if the played a game last Friday, and are on a three day break, and in the middle of that three day break, you find out that one of the players got injured. BUT the player had played the game with out getting hit too aggressively (enough to get hurt), and everyone's like "WTF??!!" Then you found out he fell in the shower."

I kept going and going. Even now, it is still funny. For reals. It's funny. Yet sad. Lolz. I don't know about you, but it'd be sad yet funny if someone got hurt if RIGHT before the game. Well, that's not at all pleasant, but my friends and I take joy out of imagining crap that is totally ridiculous.
Anyway, something similar happened today. A player of the New York Islanders was hit by an SUV. But luckily he was fine and played today. [With a loss to Philadelphia 6-2.]
And mark my words, one day, you shall, hear of an athlete falling in the shower. Hahahaha.
Brenda added to the hilarity today by saying:
"One of my teachers from elementary seriously got hurt by falling in the shower." She smiled then laughed and added, "She broke her arm." And she laughed some more. Then I laughed along with her. And everyone else quickly joined along.

That's just one joke written down from the infamous lunch room.

Some things are meant to be unspoken of and I got one of those last week, and it put me under tremendous stress. My only refuge was with the people that could laugh with me about cruel things- like people getting hurt, or calling Laura's friend Shelob from LOTR or things like Big Bird, C H O C O L A T, getting butthurt, the "Shittsburgh Pengwhines", the Capitals, Victor's Secret, and funny hockey crap. I needed something to keep me sane. I was cranky the whole week and was very unhappy that I couldn't see my friend who has moved to the Bay Area. And it kills me. Seeing my friends everyday reminds me that I can't SEE or interact with the other that isn't here. Like as if I am talking to a ghost. But I need to go to my friends and well, I was pretty much torturing myself.
But if in general, as I've said many many times before, if something keeps you happy, do it. And now, it's being with my friends and laughing with them is such a warm blessing. And I am crying right now, thinking about the scorn I will feel later when I am angry for something they do. Something that any human can do, yet I expect them to know how I want them to act or what they say. Because, I know, even when people say "You won't be friends with the people you were friends with in high school", I know that I will remember my eight amazing friends (only 4 in which I see at school) when I am older. And it will signify the youth we [this sounds morbid] deteriorated day by day. Living, laughing, remembering, and forgetting along with time, that's why I appreciate. And if there is someone watching over us, or some great power [which I in someway fell there is] I know this form of power sent me the amazing people that surround me everyday. My teachers are amazing people when they aren't pissed. And I guess I take a better liking to my science teachers. Haha. My family, even though I feel somewhat distanced from them, some give me good advice; and, even those random people who care and ask a simple question. It means a lot. My uncle asked me what I meant by "amazing people" and I meant that they are people somewhat understand me and they have good hearts and mean well.
What I am trying to say is that, sometimes, life punches you in the gut and makes you hate everything or love everything. And I of course, go through that a lot.
I am missing my friends [4 of them of which I do not see at school] for they are living their young lives in other cities or other distant- or not so distant places. Plus, I am missing my sister and my nephew and my old friend, who has left this Earth almost 4 years already.
So to me, laughs and good times are everything right now.